Validation

Again, I find myself sitting down and talking to my onion friend but now I am thinking..."what gives us validation?"
My friend sits there (again with the lovely legs) and talks about how she has decided that she doesn't need men in her life to give her validation...fair enough, I can understand that. As a girl whose gone from being boring, to "the fat one", to completely desperate to be noticed, to a happy girl, I can understand the need to feel validated by yourself. However, I have had the occasions where I look at my work (something I have always been so confident in) and the grade I've been given is, quite frankly, awful! What then, if I don't have my body and I obviously don't have the intelligence, what is giving me validation? When I feel like that, I pick up my phone and call my friends or my boyfriend. It feels great when they tell me I'm fun, bubbly, give them confidence...and there it comes. When we feel bad and upset, what gives us validation? Friends, boyfriends, family!
But again, there are only so many phrases your friends can use:
"You're gorgeous!"
"You always make me laugh"
"Your the centre of the party"
But what happens when the girl whose in the centre of the party is screaming inside...someone notice ME!!! For Me!! I'm not funny, don't look at my face...look at ME!!!
That's when I find that my boyfriend helps and your true friends help.
This girl looking at me, teary and emotional talking about validation has already got it from her friends but from what I see...she might just want a little more...and what's wrong with that?